Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Hope To Find That 'Someone'

I'm a dramas and movies addict... especially rom-com (don't judge me) I like things simple and fun.
What I really like about the characters is the hero or heroin always have their 'someone' to lean on. Like when they are sad or in trouble, they can just call and text that person right at that moment. That someone is either best friend/s or parents or siblings or the love one. I am really jealous when watching those moments. I compare them with my own life and i don't think i have that 'someone'.

I'm a girl that full with inner thoughts. I talk in my head a lot. Like A LOT. But not even half of it get through my mouth. When i have problems or in trouble or just feeling lonely i always look at my phone but i just LOOK at it. I never have a person to suddenly call to whine and complain at.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not a loner. I have good friends and lovely family who i can be crazy and share stories with. I even being in relationship before. They are all very precious to me. But maybe i'm too used being someone people can lean on, be tough so i don't be a burden to anyone, i never find a person for me to lean on. No one ever make me feel its okay to let my guards down. I have too many thoughts and secrets within myself. 

I envy those characters in those dramas. Hope i can find someone who understands me so well and will be my 'someone'. Someone who will listen to me whining and complaining and be mad at.